“It all sounds very dramatic, and in the grand scheme of things, it really isn’t. But, I’ve made the decision to stop Madelaine Vlogs as it stands.”
I’m quitting YouTube.
It all sounds very dramatic, and in the grand scheme of things, it really isn’t. But, I’ve made the decision to stop Madelaine Vlogs as it stands.
YouTube has never been a major part of this whole blogging-sphere for me. Madelaineblogs always has, and always will be my main focus. Vlogging and YouTube was something I thought I’d have a go at to see what it was like. I’d never previously edited videos, or had any knowledge in that area, so it was very much a ‘learn on the job’ kind of situation. I had no expectations. I simply did it because I thought it would be fun to try something new.
Aside from my first few videos, my vlogs have been very inconsistent. My last vlog was at the end of January. I haven’t even attempted to film anything else since then.
The intention has been there! I even wrote out a list of at least 20 different vlog ideas I wanted to film in the New Year. I even promised you guys more videos would be coming in my rebrand blog post (sorry about that!) but the motivation to do it just hasn’t been there. Quitting YouTube is something I’ve been thinking about for a while. It’s time I stopped pretending to myself – and you guys. It seems pointless, my hearts not in it, and I just want to go back to doing what I love – writing.
So, what’s it really like to vlog?
The whole vlogging process takes a long time. The filming may be fairly quick if it’s simply a sit down chat with the camera, but the editing afterwards can take hours. It’s a lot of back and forth. Tiny changes being made here and there, and by the end of it, I’m sick of hearing my own voice.
Filming out and about vlogs are a different matter altogether. I have so much respect for people who film vlogs all the time. They take a long time to put together. Getting the camera set up for one shot. Moving it to another shot. It’s on/off and back on again more times than you can say “YouTube” and it’s a drag! You really do have to be dedicated and have the time to dedicate to it – I only have the weekends!
As much fun as it’s been, there’s definitely a reason I’ve not picked up that camera to film for months. There’s a reason I haven’t been consistent. As lovely as it is to look back at videos of days out or holidays, it’s the last thing I actually want to do on holiday. I don’t want to feel like I have to get the camera out to film because I need to complete the vlog. And I can’t shift the feeling that it slightly ruins days out. You’re forever looking through a lense, rather than actually being completely present in the moment. It’s become a chore.
So, what now?
I prefer to share little snippets here and there over on my Instagram stories. When you’re taking photos on holiday (standard), trying to film for a vlog and show what you’re up to on Instagram stories, it’s all way too much for my liking. I just want to focus on what I really enjoy – Instagram and blogging.
I’m not saying I won’t ever film again. It’s so lovely to have home videos of holidays, or random clips here and there to look back on, but I’ll do that in my own time, for my own enjoyment and viewing, rather than ‘creating’ a video for others to watch. Who knows, I’m sure there will be little video snippets I’ll be adding in to blog posts here and there – just not full on vlogs.
That being said, I still absolutely love watching other people’s vlogs and that won’t change – in particular Lydia Millen, The Anna Edit and In The Frow to name a few. No doubt watching them will give me the itch to start it up again, but for now, I’ve made my decision. Vlogging is not for me.
Never say never, though.